Praying

I never knew what it was like to ache to be near someone as much as I do now. 

I need him near me. 

The way he loves me as the complete healed woman I'm becoming. 

In my pain I'm a monster, he doesn't even know that person. 

He holds me as I feel like a frightened child again. 

I relive so much. 

Being vulnerable is hard. 

My heart knows to open..... 

My mind plays out all the pain I've experienced to remind me how scary that place is. 

My mind even creates new scenarios to scare my spirit. 

Oh I've prayed for this 

The other half of me. 

The one I cried for. 

The one who was always with me. 

Please mind.... 

Please let me be. 

Let me love him the way he deserves. 

He's so innocent and beautiful. 

Its almost as if he doesn't belong here. 

On earth. 

The world and life have been cruel to him. 

I just want to be his refuge. 

Please God help me.

Oh God please quiet my mind. 

My heart knows what to do.